(The few, but the incredibly loved friends that follow along on here!!) REJOICE! When I started this blog it was not for this purpose. I’ve talked about that before in another post. I never thought I would come here exploding from the seams with the exciting things that God has put in my life.
It’s been a long time since I’ve written, friends. It’s been a long time, because I’ve been incredibly busy, incredibly anxious, incredibly stressed, and incredibly strapped for time. I have not stopped praising Jesus, though! I want you to know that! I make it a point to start every day with scripture; however, that doesn’t always mean I have awesome days. I’ll be honest. There have been a few ROUGH days the past couple of weeks. (Well the entire summer, which I’ve also mentioned before.)
Here’s the difference though, when I first started this blog, I allowed my circumstances to control me and then I would get on here and say horrible things–some of it humorous, none of it beneficial. But now, I have the love, the confidence, the strength, the comfort and the peace of my loving Lord Jesus Christ!! (can you tell I got a little excited there?! If you could have seen me typing you would have thought my keys were going to skid off my keyboard.) So, I have bad days and I have anxiety and then you know what I do?!
I constantly ask Jesus for guidance. For comfort and peace.
Today church was AMAZING! It was exactly what I needed to hear from God. The first thing said today was from one of the worship leaders. He welcomed everyone and then he said “This week, I’ve been really anxious. I’ve been having a difficult time being content with the circumstances that I’m in and God has really been speaking to me through Philippians chapter 4.” And then he started to read:
Rejoice in the Lord always. I will say it again: Rejoice! Let your gentleness be evident to all. The Lord is near. Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your request to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard you hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.
Hey Jesus, I hear you loud and clear this mornin’!! Thanks for stoppin’ in to speak specifically to the depths of my soul.
I sang my heart out to Jesus today. I poured my spirit out to him. I repented for my grumpy spirit, for my confusion and my anxiety. I praised God for who he is and for his love and his comfort. I raised my hands high, I stretched them to Heaven praying I would feel his hands touch mine back. I swayed back and forth and kept thanking Jesus for his power and his love. In those moments, nothing mattered.
NOTHING MATTERED. Only Jesus.
Friends, my life is hectic. I’m sure a couple of my 30 some followers can relate. Maybe you have some stress. Maybe you have some sorrow. Maybe you are facing something that you JUST. DON’T. SEE. AN. END. TO.
I am too. I am too. And I want you to know something–God wants you to cast ALL your anxiety on him, for he cares for you. 1Peter 4:7
I want you to know something else. I sat down this afternoon to do some reading and connecting with God. I decided to start in Philippians, because I wanted to see what the music minister was all excited about. And let me tell YOU something! Before I even got to chapter 4, the Lord jumped out of that Bible and he hit me square in the forehead with just the right words I needed to hear.
Philippians 1:19- For I know that through your prayers
and the help given by the Spirit of Jesus Christ
what has happened to me will turn out for my deliverance.
What we are facing in this life. The trials and the hurt and the pain and the suffering and the anxiety and the worry and the angst. IT WILL BE FOR OUR DELIVERANCE. Our suffering will be rewarded 10 fold. (That’s in the Bible somewhere too. I can’t place exactly where at the moment.)
Before that specific verse Paul is talking and he is saying that “what has happened to me has really served to advance the gospel.” (verse 12)
That is my prayer today. Everyday. That even in these circumstances. Even in this place in my life where things seem to have no end, no way out, no relief that what has happened to me has really served to advance the gospel. When people ask me how I’m making it, when people say “you are so strong”, when people compliment my actions, I want them to see that it’s not me who’s made it. It’s Jesus living in me.
Friends, (my 30 glorious followers 😉 ) Just know. Please just know that the God of the universe loves you. He sees the hurt and the sorrow. He sees the circumstance. And he IS the way out. Your circumstances my not change for awhile, but your heart can change now. Let what you’re going through be an advancement of the gospel.